Jealousy is a bitter pill to swallow…
Hey bitches I’m back, for real this time. No more contemplating on the lessons you can learn in a bedroom but more on the lessons you can learn in life such as this: people can be assholes and truly not realise it!
Over the weekend I damn near killed myself moving furniture around and setting up the new tele etc but as a treat, Nate came over for a take out and movie and we lay on my bed just holding etc. Nothing seedy though I suppose it sounds sappy but it was just what I needed you know? Anyhow, Sunday I finished my room (thank god!) and in the evening went around to Dan’s for dinner and a catch up. Big mistake. I’m not saying I had a terrible time, quite the opposite in fact but the more he talked, the more jealous I became. He told me all about his nights out to the theatre or just chilling with his mates and I suddenly realised just how alone I felt. Not a single friend apart from Nate has seen me since we split yet I know (from Dan) that none of them hate me for what I did. So what gives? I understand that they should go to Dan first but no one wants to ask how I’m doing or even why I did it? Lame. The day after Dan and I split up I od’d and ended up in hospital (yeah yeah I know, depressing shit so we’ll move quickly on) and even my two friends that know about it (though I wasn’t looking for sympathy when they I told them) haven’t been in touch since it happened. I would give my last cent if it made a friend happy so why do I always seem to pick twats? No idea but it’s no longer happening. I deserve a good friend and I’ll find them one day. In the meantime I hope I have some friends on here?!
On a plus note for the day I spoke to my boss, my line manager and the big boss and they all gave me the go ahead for taking 3 months off for travelling! WOOHOO! IT was even better though because they all seemed genuinely happy for me and said I deserved it and that it should be just wanted I needed. It’s nice to feel that even though sometimes I feel like throttling them lol.
So, tomorrow’s post is dedicated to LiLu and Larissa as they asked where I’m going on my travels (I was so excited at work when they all said yes I went a bit hyper and had a HUGE come down this afternoon therefore making me fall asleep at my desk).
Until next time…
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OMG! I’m so sorry you went through that alone!! I hope things are a bit better now!! Friends can really suck sometimes. I’m very much the same as you – I am the 100% friend (with some take-it-or-leave-it friends) but it’s never fully reciprocated. It can be really sad sometimes! But you need to believe that you are the best friend someone could want and maybe they just dont deserve you!! You’ll figure it out! x
Oh yay! Glad to have you back, and to hear where you’re headed! Tres exciting
I think that really sucks about your friends..go meet some new ones!! Do you have meetup.com where you live? One of my friends moved to Florida and didn’t know a soul so she went to meet.up.com and met some really great people. Just a thought! BTW…I am a follower of yours but it no longer shows me……hmmmm…….
Jen – TSK: Thank you for your compliments. I will find a friend who appreciates me – I promise! Sometimes when I think about it makes me sad but for now, screw the lot of them if they don’t want me lol.
LiLu: I’m glad I’m back too! Travel plans will be posted tomorrow – I’m so excited!
Lady Jane: No, no meetup.com where I am but I’ll find friends. Thankfully I’m the type of person who can talk to anyone. If all else fails I’ll head over to Match.com and see where that takes me lol. I know you’re still following – my site crashed and I had to re-apply the Friend Connect giving me two accounts! Just sign out from following me and then head over to my homepage and sign up again – that should clear it!
I’m new and fairly confused but I’m gonna get me caught up sot that I can actively participate on this situation. Hang in there. Breakups suck.
I’m not surprised you’re confused – a lot is going on right now lol. Looking forward to when you’re fully caught up and participating